I have panic attacks almost every night and I have no idea why, I don't even feel human and I think I’m going to die young, and I'll be alone knowing nothing more than to see life in a positive way, but it all just feels so uncertain, and I've never been a strong or confident person
I try to make myself believe that I don’t care what other people think but actually I care too much and that gets in the way of a lot
I'm scared of everything, emotionally I feel like a kid and I just want everyone to like me and be proud of me, but it feels wrong, makes me feel like a narcissist
I don't know if I am one, I really don't want to be, but I'm just confused, I always put my own names before anyone else, I'm selfish I just hope no one mourns me when I'm gone, the least I can do is not matter to anyone, so I'll just keep on keeping to myself

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𝙗𝙞𝙜 𝙣𝙖𝙢𝙚𝙧, 𝙞𝙢 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 ♛

когда я загадочно иду мимо крутых подростков что я надеюсь они думают:

«ого этот парень такой мистический и скрытный наверное за этим скрывается интересная личность»

что они думают на самом деле:

«♥♥♥ лол чувак седня у стейси вечеринка захвати гандонов оо смотри какое чмо идет а ну да о чем это я пойдем купим бухла для тусовки»