I HAVE NEVER WANTED TO HAVE A WIFE AND KIDS AS MUCH AS I DO NOW. THE PUNCH ECHOING IN OUR EMPTY APARTMENT SINCE DAD (me) SOLD THE FURNITURE FOR AN AK SKIN. HELLO I AM JURY, I GOT UNBANNED ON THIS DAY 06/12/25, FROM A 7 DAY BAN. I HAVE CURRENTLY HAD 3 ENERGY DRINKS AND SPENT PROPABLY A TOTAL OF 2 HOURS TRYING TO GET THIS LAPTOP WORKING. I HAVE SWITCHED 2 LAPTOPS SSD'S TO PLAY CS. I DO A FEW PRACTICE GAMES AND A FEW WIGNMANS. MINOR CRASHES. IM 90% CLOSE TO UNLOCKING PREMIERE. 93%, 96%, 99!!!! AND THEN I FINALLY GOT IT. AFTER 150 HOURS OF PLAYING THIS ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ GAME I FINALLY UNLOCKED PREMIER. IM HAPPY, ITS 4AM IM IN A CRAMMED OFFICE SPACE THATS CURRENTLY AT THE TIME OF WRITING 26,8°C. THE PUBIC LICE COVERED KEYBOARD CLICKING, AS I PLAY THE GAME. I DO HAVE TO MENTION THAT THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN ME AND CS2 IS A LOVE-HATE RELATIONSHIP. ITS AROUND 97.23% HATE AND SOME OF THE REST IS LOVE, ALTHOUGH LOVE IS NOT THE RIGHT WORD. SO AS I WAS SAYING. UNLOCKING PREMIER, DRENCHED IN SWEAT, CRYING TEARS OF HAPPINESS, ME AND MY FRIEND DECIDE TO QUEUE UP FOR A PREMIER GAME. WE HAVE A WOMAN IN OUR TEAM, BAD START. APART FROM THE POTATO GRAPHICS I HAD TO USE ON THE LAPTOP, IT WENT WELL. I GOT A FEW KILLS AND EVEN MADE IT TO THE TOP OF THE LEADERBOARD. I WAS FEELING ON TOP OF THE WORLD UNTIL.... AN ERROR POPS UP. SOMETHING ALONG "INTERNAL ERROR OCCURED", THE GAME CLOSES. I OPEN STEAM TO LAUNCH IT, MY FRIEND ANXIOUSLY SPAMMING THE "CALL COUNTER-TERRORIST TIMEOUT" BUTTON. UPON HITTING LAUNCH IT PROCEEDS TO SAY "DOWNLOADING CONTENT 0%" . THATS WEIRD. AN UPDATE ♥♥♥♥♥ MY GAME UP? THE UPDATE DOES NOT UPDATE. 1 TIME OUT TURNS INTO 3. THE CLOCK AGAINST THE BAN IS TICKING. FIRST MINUTE. I TRY VERIFYING THE INTEGRITY OF THE GAMES FILES. DOES IT VERIFY? ♥♥♥♥ NO. SECOND MINUTE IM PANICKLY RESTARTING THE PC AND STEAM WHICH HAD LITTLE TO NO USE OTHER THAN WASTE MY TIME. DURING THOSE 2 MINUTES I WAS CONTEMPLATING LEAVING THE GAS STOVE ON FOR THE NIGHT AND GOING TO BED. 3RD MINUTE. ACCEPTING MY FATE. I WATCH MY FRIENDS SCREEN AS IT SAID "KANAKASTE HAS 1 MINUTE LEFT TO REJOIN". I LAY BACK ON THE CHAIR, LOOKING AT THE STUTTERING MONITOR, KNOWING IT WAS OVER. I KNEW VALVE IS GOING TO PUNISH ME FOR MY "BAD BEHAVIOR". I WENT OUTSIDE, SITTING ON THE PORCH. MY FRIEND COMES AND TALKS TO ME ABOUT MY AK REACTION TIMES. I TELL HIM TO SHUT UP. I DIDNT WANT TO HEAR ABOUT THAT GAME ANYMORE. IS THIS GAME ACTUALLY HEALTHY FOR ME? WHY AM I SO MAD, YET SO ADDICTED TO IT? WHY WOULD I AND WHY WILL I COME BACK AFTER THE 7 DAYS? IS IT THE SKINS? THE GAMEPLAY? THE RUSSIAN TEAMMATES WHO YOURE NEVER GOOD ENOUGH FOR?